Please Help Me

I have been married for 10 years and have 2 children. They are 9 and 5. My husband suffers from bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. We got married when we were 16 and I was pregnant with our daughter. I understand that a disability like bipolar is very difficult. I struggle to see what is the disorder and what is my husband. Over the years he has become more aggressive and mean to me. he also has struggled with being an alcoholic and a drug user. I am a christian women and believe that God holds marriage very highly. My husband also takes the medication adderal for his ADD. Today he was looking for his prescription and could not find it and was mad at me because I washed the pants that he had laying in the bathroom floor. Apparently his prescription was in those pants. He freaked out and tore my whole room apart and kicked in my filing cabinet and broke many other things. He also called me a few not so nice words. Earlier in the morning I asked him to go and pick up our daughter from a sleep over and he was speeding and got a ticket but it was my fault because he didn't want to go in the first place. I think that this is all very unfair and that he needs to take some responsibility for himself but he wont listen to me about it. If anyone has some advise I would love to hear it. Thank you